1. a pause or gap in a sequence, series, or process.

    "there was a brief hiatus in the war with France"

    synonyms:pause, break, gap, lacuna, interval, intermission, interlude, interruption, respite, suspension, lull, time out, time off, recess

A lacuna...I like the sound of a lacuna. Sounds like a laguna, which reminds me of a lagoon and deep blue-green waters and all things tropical and beautiful. Have the past few months of my blog simply been lost in a tropical lacuna? Actually wait, lacuna also means a cavity or depression, and I’ve thankfully been neither cavity ridden or depressed, so let's maybe scrap lacuna…So I guess I’ve been on a hiatus, and not a very intentional one at that. 

I'm in simultaneous awe and fear of how quickly time passes the older I get. I've always been fascinated by movies and tv shows about time and space. They're eternally confounding and fascinating. But I’m not talking about movies today. Today my mind is on why I haven’t been writing here. 

My life has changed considerably over the rapidly passing months of 2018. I’m talking huge, gigantic, life altering things. I have been writing all this time, but all of it is incredibly personal and though I’ve made leaps and bounds when it comes to sharing my writing in a public space, some parts of life are meant to remain private. The good news is all these secretive things I allude to are almost entirely positive ones, so my absence isn’t a sign of tough times or anything worrisome.  It’s just my life and the complete and happy unpredictability of it. 

Even though I can’t divulge all the deepest inner workings of my mind, it doesn’t mean I can’t continue to write and share some parts of myself on this blog. So I’m here to start up my writing again as I sip an impossibly green smoothie [a recipe I have to share because it’s so STUPID tasty I feel like crying [!!!].  Disgusting smoothies are the worst. I mean really, they quite literally put a bad taste in your mouth and who wants that? This one however tastes like magic in a mason jar. Sigh. 


I feel like I’ve been trying to jump-start my blog for some time now, and in the midst of my blissful smoothie sipping morning, I am beginning to write again, if in a slightly odd fashion. I’ve now gone down an entirely new rabbit hole of how to jump-start a car battery…

According to meineke.com, [note: this is their abridged version- do read the more extensive copy if you've somehow stumbled upon this blog post with actual hopes of learning how to jump-start a car!]

  1. Start the working vehicle

  2. Wait a minute or so.  Depending on the age of the battery and how long since it died, you may need to let the car run for a minute or two to get the jump to work.

  3. Try starting the dead car. If the car doesn't start, allow the working vehicle to charge the battery for an additional minute or two before attempting again.  In some instances, slightly revving the engine of the working car while charging the dead battery may help.

  4. Once the dead car is running, you may disconnect the jumper cables, starting with the black, negative cable clamps. Do not let the clamps touch each other while any part of the cables is still attached to a car.

  5. Now, take a short drive. This will allow the battery to build up a charge. This driving allows the vehicle’s alternator to charge the battery and ensures that your vehicle does not die again once you turn it off.

Huh. I can’t help but relate. Funny how that happens. Sometimes the strangest things resonate, like that Apple commercial about a red balloon that made me cry, though let's be real it was probably more the beautiful song than the red balloon finding it's yellow balloon soulmate. Anyway back to car care. As I attempt to apply Meineke's unwitting words of wisdom to my blog, it seems like an oddly straightforward solution. I simply need to start the working blog [yes despite it’s obvious stagnancy, it's still working!]. Wait a minute or so and give myself time to write. Then try starting the blog up again [actually post something, ANYTHING!], and once the blog is up and running, I can start to disconnect any of the negative anxiety I have about posting things that aren’t perfect. A functioning car is better than a dead car sitting idly by right? Or blog. 

I also can’t help but find the Meineke slogan equally fitting: 


YES Meineke, YES! On with life. On with the blog :)